It Hurts

Do you know what it feels like to be hurt inside and can do nothing about it? Sakit kan? Aya rasa macam nak belah dada Aya, cabut apa yang rasa menyebabkan rasa sakit tu. [kalau lah boleh buat macam tu] It really hurts and I can do nothing about it. Aya manusia biasa yang ada hati dan perasaan. And Aya bukan lah one of the people yang betul2 tabah and strong. Aya seorang yang kuat menangis. Memang dari kecil macam tu. I'm not asking for sympathy bila Aya menangis [kat mana2 pun Aya boleh menangis]. It's just my way of letting it go. Rasa marah ke, stres ke, sedih ke, I let it go through my tears. That's just how it is. Aya punya problem maybe tak besar mana pun tapi bagi Aya, it is. I wish I have the courage to confront. Tapi courage Aya tak cukup. Aya boleh cakap Aya ok. But at some point, Aya akan burst out. Macam orang gila pun ada. Aya boleh ketawa and the next second Aya boleh menangis. I hate this feelings. Aya nak happy. Aya nak forgive and forget. Tapi hati Aya tak boleh tak peduli apa yang Aya rasa. Sorry sebab post such a depressing post tapi Aya perlu let it out.